l i s t s !

2009-03-31T08:14:00.000-04:00

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2008-12-21T17:06:00.002-05:00

a sunday list

1. enjoy pretty sky
2. note bittersweet feelings
3. drop carrot end on floor because i missed the table where it should have done
4. ruminate over lack of swimming and other activities that enhance mind-body connection
5. think about preparing chicken
6. remove chicken from brine solution
7. prepare assortment of local winter vegetables
8. assemble in oven-safe roasting vessel
9. roast chicken beginning at very high temperature, systematically adjusting downward in intervals of 10 or 20 minutes

there is more.

2008-01-11T18:28:00.001-05:00

fun: not as easy as it sounds.

identifying and obtaining fun is not as easy as it seems. here is a list of all the fun i had today. and today did not start out with much fun. in fact, in keeping with my unfortunate wiring as a person who sees the glass half empty before seeing that it is also half full, let us enumerate the ways in which today was: not fun

1. it was necessary to wake up early on a day off
2. there was insufficient time to properly enjoy my coffee
3. rain was impending
4. i did not have an outer garment of an appropriate weight or material to be suitable for today's temperature and precipitation
5. on a day off, i had to ride standing up on a rush hour crowded manhattan-bound d train
6. there was negative energy near me
7. when i attempted to alleviate some interpassenger stress i found myself in the unfortunate but familiar position to do: counseling with strangers who are sleep deprived and in the midst of family crisis

the fun part

1. breakfast at whole foods that consisted of (a) center cut bacon, (b) zucchini latke thing, (c) oat scone, (d) yummy coffee
2. shambhala sun magazine with story about sylvia boorstein, our favorite jubu
3. movie, the diving bell and the butterfly, a difficult movie to watch but going to a movie on a weekday is excellent
4. lunch at a cute cafe that specializes in crepes. it may be portuguese. we had pressed pannini, green salad, and a dessert crepe.
5. ball of fresh, unsalted mozzarella cheese from joe's, and i'm not going to tell you where it is
6. jacques torres, where we got a can of traditional style hot chocolate as a gift for someone, ate samples and watched big rotating vats of chocolate being made

2007-11-30T13:55:00.000-05:00

regret/in a fit of self-righteous and inspired apartment cleansing, i threw out
1. very old wooden and metal test tube holders
2. important menstrual artifact literally yanked off wall of bathroom of building i was working by applying full body weight while hanging, every day for a week

2007-06-05T18:45:00.000-04:00

i am partying

school is out, i'm getting ready to go away to my groovy 9-day silent meditation retreat and the happy weather outside is not convincing me to go out and play. instead, i am inside "taking care of business" on the computer all day long. i am partying. here is what is going on.
1. drinking bottle of china cola
2. eating unsalted bearitos brand tortilla chips
3. feeling too overwhelmed by leisure time to be able to choose music
4. knowing i must brush my teeth and go out to buy fish for the evening meal which is being presented at 8.
5. wanting to bake a cake, but knowing there is no equipment.
6. i just pulled a tortilla chip anomoly out of the dish: it is thick and lumpy and looks like a lot of crumbs baked together yet it is impossible to eat.

later
1. bought glorious, soft eli's sourdough loaf and am carving diligently
2. hunk o pepper jack cheese
3. fresh salmon
4. zucchini
5. whatever - i'm focusing on the bread, cheese and fish parts of this meal.
6. mixed baby green salad with my genius dressing of lemon, salt, and olive oil
later

2007-06-05T18:38:00.000-04:00

i am a smartass

on a certain email list, the following query was offered. it is followed by my as yet unsubmitted suggestions.

query: A strange thought has occurred to me. When we buy commercially made gefilte fish, it is packed in jars with a jelly to keep it moist. When the pieces of fish are removed from the jar (and eaten), the jelly remains, roughly half-filling the jar. It seems passing wasteful to me simply to discard the jelly, but I have no idea what use to make of it. It's edible, of course, but what is there with which it could be combined into something palatable? Any thoughts, anyone? (name withheld)

my suggestions:
1. fill colored balloons with the jelly and drop them off your roof but don't hit old people.
2. collect all the jelly and place it inside a pinata. hang said pinata from a tree and invite your friends over for a pinata busting good time.
3. collect all the jelly and ship it to random people in the phone book.
4. collect all the jelly and ship it to our friends at peta.

there are many other possibilities, but this list seems unbecoming and should be stopped immediately.

more

since posting this about two hours ago, several members have offered their suggestions. i am not making this up.

1. "Thank you for this light and serious challenge!! i am smiling broadly.Every once in awhile when i open the jar of gefilte fish i am saddened to see that i got the wrong one!The “wrong one” for me is the one without the jelly.i pour the jelly out with each gefilte fish piece and mix it up with horseradish and enjoy every bite of withthis mixture. i generally am out of the jelly and i have no “half full” in the jar!Another way to enjoy it is to make scrambled eggs – add some jelly, scallions, salt and pepper.Hope this helps the gefilte fish jelly dilemma!"

2. "I put it in a mug, heat it in the microwave, and drink it as a high protein hot drink for lunch. "

2007-04-05T11:10:00.000-04:00

pesach foods include
1. yehuda matzos
2. lamb
3. guac
4. haroset
5. pear salad with something else crunchy in it
6. chopped liver
7. chicken
8. chocolate walnut cake
9. fruit soup
10. spinach salad
11. regular green salad
12. gefilte fish
13. matzoh ball soup
14. coffee
15. chamomille tea

2007-03-30T16:47:00.000-04:00

today
1. quinoa + tahini + coffee
2. regretful turkey and cheese sandwich + melon + 2-pak cookies
3. three ("3") slices high quality organic turkey + same high quality organic coffee
4. enjoyment watching young girls and boys learn "boot" and "step" dancing
5. satisfaction, in retrospect, at my expanding ability to let pain, sadness, and disappointment pierce my heart instead of constructing elaborate revenge fantasies or endlessly rehearsing self-righteous indignation
6. fear that i will catch cold and not be able to finish all my papers
7. happiness and anticipation of glorious shabbat which will include (1) solo relaxation, (2) kabbalat shabbat service in renewal style in brooklyn, and a (3) day long meditation retreat with much respected teachers from the insight meditation society.
8. unbridled joy in the knowledge that only thirteen ("13") units of field placement remain.

2007-01-19T14:52:00.000-05:00

today's menu
1. spleen-chi supportive herbs
2. water
3. one ("1") boiled egg with sea salt
4. one ("1") piece of sprouted grains bread with organic, smooth, salty peanut butter
5. coffee
6. hummus
7. cherry tomatoes
8. lemon larabar
9. pear

2007-01-08T17:48:00.000-05:00

things left to do this evening

1. eat dinner (see "lame")
2. meet with kit kaplan to design business cards - maybe.
3. work co op shift with great presence. aim for express lane, but accept with gratitude any job that is offered.
4. come home late.
5. drink tea, complain, pet lovely partner.
6. shower.
7. apply ayurvedic facial products with care.
8. obsess about cat.
9. go to sleep.

2007-01-08T17:43:00.000-05:00

i have a new rotation of restaurants in my new and improved life. here they are.

1. al di la (please note random schedule of closing)
2. presto! (thanksgiving day sandwich only)
3. bonnie's bar & grill (wings and burgers only)
4. the chip shop (cod & chips only)
5. stone park (brunch only)
6. perch (cobb salad, desserts, coffee)
7. la villa
8. mekong

2006-10-23T18:03:00.000-04:00

everything is different
1. quit job at law firm.
2. received strange but wonderful gifts from lovely attorneys.
3. misplaced prissy china tea cup but this could be a symbolic way of entering a new period in my life, that is, the non-secretary period.
4. went to maine.
5. started grad school.
6. read millions of pages of things.
7. wrote a million papers.
8. had first client, an 86- year old woman in canarsie.
9. terminated first client.

2006-07-11T17:08:00.000-04:00

what i did today besides work hard

1. ate oatmeal with flaxseed oil for breakfast.
2. got to work on time.
3. found a piece of newspaper in the stall in the ladies room and read about diet and how you should only have one serving of things and that serving should be much much smaller than the size it probably is, and how in the last twenty years americans have supersized and rejected small elegant food and how we are just so fat it's amazing we can stand ourselves.
4. cancelled my aol account, and i hate aol, let me just be clear that i HATE aol, that even though they have an agreement with the attorney general of new york, their practice around account cancellation is irritating and wrong and felt a lot like dealing with an evangelist or worse, my parents.
5. snuck out, with permission of boss, for an iced espresso, and was able to convince him that the best deal at starbucks is the iced doppio for $2.06.
6. ate spinach salad for lunch with lemony sardines, cucumber and tomato even though i have learned that according to my blood type, which is type b, a very modern and evolved type of blood, tomatoes are not ideal or even neutral and can, in fact, be harmful and should be removed from my diet rotation immediately.

2006-06-27T11:09:00.000-04:00

today

1. removed and flushed waterbug on behalf of terrified co-worker
2. had the thought to release the creature into nature but realized this would be difficult given the fact i work in an office building and cannot really come and go as i please
3. am now seen as a hero in the eyes of many
4. am enjoying "breakfast blend" decaf brewed in my french press and served in my prissy china cup and saucer
5. am enjoying the sounds of jerry garcia via pandora as i work, or try to work
6. am thinking about going into the kitchen to enjoy the egg salad made with love by my beloved this very morning
7. am happy with my outfit even though the shoe aspect doesn't thrill me
8. am wondering whether it would be wrong to wear my new birkenstocks to work

2006-06-21T13:45:00.000-04:00

what i'm wearing today

1. faded pink "classic" old navy polo shirt
2. gray pinstriped slacks, summer weight
3. black timberland shoes that bore me to death
4. tortoise shell glasses
5. fancy watch with black band that will soon require replacement

2006-06-21T12:00:00.000-04:00

to do

1. drink decaf coffee i just brewed in plastic bodum given by former friend
2. perform many secretarial tasks with mindfulness, kindness, compassion as if i were diapering the baby buddha himself
3. return wheely-cart i mistakenly purchased at bed, bath & beyond yesterday not realizing that my conversion to a person who uses luggage-on-wheels has taken place
4. leave on time, so as to engage properly and fully in laundry night ritual that includes eating a cobb salad at perch on fifth avenue and enjoying their fine musical selections and ambience.

2006-06-14T17:15:00.000-04:00

books read lately

1. biography of gene simmons
2. confederacy of dunces (again), by john kennedy toole
3. lovingkindness: the revolutionary art of happiness, by sharon salzberg
4. that's funny, you don't look buddhist, by sylvia boorstein
5. it's easier than you think(?), by sylvia boorstein

2006-06-14T17:10:00.000-04:00

today

1. yogurt with strawberry, banana, raisins, almonds
2. coffee
3. two ("2") small containers fresh orange juice
4. 2 boiled eggs with canola mayo and bright yellow mustard
5. foods obtained from advertising meeting including: pieces of salmon with an unknown sauce on them and also some slices of turkey
6. decaf coffee
7. water

2006-04-26T15:49:00.000-04:00

today/tonight

1. work feverishly
2. commute/read
3. change into comfortable clothing
4. feed chickens
5. prepare simple meal of kale and tofu
6. eat above simple meal with proper blessings
7. work on important document
8. ablutions
9. tea/pre-bed cocktail of flaxseed meal and magnesium powder
10. bed

2006-04-26T15:28:00.000-04:00

administrative professional day

1. high quality tote bag with company logo emblazened upon it
2. $25 gift certificate which will be used to purchase books and/or music
3. cubes of many kinds of cheeses
4. grapes of two colors
5. strawberry, large
6. small bottle poland spring water
7. bouquet of lovely orange flowers in nifty wrapping and nifty, heartfelt card

2006-04-16T21:20:00.000-04:00

test

2006-02-10T11:43:00.000-05:00

weekend

1. shabbat
2. yoga
3. long, vigorous walk
4. read
5. movie
6. hot date
7. brunch
8. organize papers
9. call rev. susannah and leave my vocal rendition of mourner's kaddish on her answering machine so she can learn it in order to lead services for her uncle who has not yet died yet but his death is imminent so why not?

2006-02-10T11:41:00.000-05:00

what's in my lunch bag today

1. half ("1/2") banana
2. one ("1") date
3. one ("1") cherry pie larabar
4. one ("1") tin fabulous lemony sardines

what i might buy, in addition to the above

1. something with lots of greens in it, like, japanese seaweed salad, if i can find some

2006-01-06T15:35:00.000-05:00

what i'm going to do this weekend

1. acupuncture
2. welcome shabbat bride
3. prepare and serve dinner - fish?
4. tea and cookies
5. sleep
6. shul
7. yoga
8. socialize with lovely little park slope family, friends from shul
9. write
10. laundry
11. movie
12. comb cats

2006-01-06T14:59:00.000-05:00

what i've eaten so far today

1. coffee, black
2. raw almonds
3. one ("1") medjool date
4. bathtub size soup of japanese morsels
5. salad with japanese dressing
6. california roll
7. ruby pear

2005-12-08T15:11:00.000-05:00

important questions

1. why is it that whenever an ancient civilization is unearthed, there is pottery?

related questions

a. even if it's a two hundred year old wall in the subway, why do we find pottery?
a-1. why would there be pottery in a train station unless passengers were carrying it in great numbers?
b. i didn't think pottery played that essential a role in daily life, but apparently it does. i don't have much pottery around me, do you?

2. why do i love tortilla chips so much?

2005-12-08T14:30:00.000-05:00

more books: completed and in progress

1. reading lolita in tehran
2. the kite runner
3. the path of blessing (in progress)
4. the sunflower (in progress)
5. how to make friends and influence people (in progress)
6. a life worth living (in progress)

2005-11-01T11:57:00.000-05:00

books i've read lately.
1. basketball diaries
2. fast food nation

in progress.
1. sacred therapy (still)
2. reading lolita in tehran
3. the path of blessing

2005-11-01T10:37:00.000-05:00

a shameless want list.

1. yoga week at kripalu
2. jewish spiritual retreat at eilat chayim
3. silent meditation retreat at insight yoga in barre, ma
4. to attend the aleph kallah, held in the warmer months
5. a very long massage by sheri, of opal, in park slope
6. some new work clothes
7. a snappy, warm winter coat
8. some new, good-for-you, work shoes
9. some new cds
10. a week or two off from work, just to get things done
11. a house keeper to clean the cat litter daily, or often, among other things
12. a laptop - there is no room for my desktop computer
13. a dental scholarship to take care of the issues i'm putting off
14. a social work school scholarship, so i can attend an excellent program and live in dignity while i do so

2005-09-23T12:18:00.000-04:00

today
1. work like dog
2. return broke-down, lame, overpriced "personal shopping cart" to bed, bath & beyond
3. buy flowers
4. cook a chicken
5. invite shabbat bride in
6. enjoy

2005-06-23T15:57:00.000-04:00

what i'd like to happen tonight

1. run 5k with ease, skipping gracefully across the finish line
2. find mate easily
3. locate transportation easily
4. enjoy quiet, correctly temperatured train environment
5. arrive home quickly
6. find no cat debris
7. take glorious shower
8. dress
9. go out for lovely sushi dinner

2005-06-17T16:39:00.000-04:00

books i've read lately

1. let the trumpet sound: a life of martin luther king, by stephen b. oates
2. running with scissors

books i'm still working on

1. life of pi
2. you shall feel our velocity
3. scar tissue

2005-06-17T16:36:00.000-04:00

what i've eaten today. so far.

1. some kind of healthy cereal with raisins and 1% milk
2. banana
3. coffee
4. vegan tofu salad
5. tabouli
6. grape tomatoes
7. burrito elements
a. guacamole
b. refried beans
c. grated cheeses
d. minced red onion
e. sliced steak
f. sliced chicken
8. several carob-coated almonds

2005-04-26T12:00:00.000-04:00

places i might want to live

1. miami
2. the borscht belt

2005-04-21T16:19:00.000-04:00

news

1. am severely limiting my caffeing intake.
2. have a small ponytail.
3. am very happy in general. bad moods pass like clouds.
4. can't stop thinking about bacon. all kinds.
5. now enjoy red tea, lemongrass tea, ginger tea to name only a few.
6. have begun to seek out casual walks and nature experiences.
7. ran 3 miles plus two weekends ago.
8. the hate is gone.

2005-04-21T16:10:00.000-04:00

what i have eaten today - so far

1. walnuts
2. banana
3. strawberry
4. two ("2") boiled eggs
5. left over steamed broccoli, carrots, squash
6. left over white basmati rice
7. "sunny blues" blue corn chips
8. coffee
9. ginger tea

note: i am unable to gather the strength to specify organic or non. but, be assured that everything consumed is organic today except the banana.

2005-03-04T17:06:00.000-05:00

new things

1. teflon. i turned my nose up at teflon (i am using the word "teflon" to include all nonstick cooking surfaces), and rightly so. it's unattractive and so...amateur. meanwhile, i have to admit i have come to love cooking certain things with teflon. tofu, for example, should be cooked in teflon. without using tons of fat you can saute tofu so nicely. it gets nice and brown and you don't kill half the tofu by scraping it off the pan.

2. the library. why didn't i think of this sooner? who needs to *buy* books all the time in order to read them? i have taken out a book about pregnancy, two cook books and have two books of fiction on order. anything i like a lot i can certainly buy. cookbooks are good to try out before you buy them. some books you only need for a short time. others you want for a lifetime. i have re read very few of my fiction paperbacks - it would be great to dipose of them and stop collecting them. it's not like i don't find a shelf's worth of books each time i step outside in park slope.

3. soy sauce and water instead of stock. deglaze with about a sixth of a cup of soy sauce and the rest water (for a total of a cup) instead of chicken or veg stock. insert garlic and ginger into the liquid.

4. anger and hate as: optional. if someone annoys me i don't have to hate them or push them off of my social radar. i can be annoyed. hate is exhausting and so is anger. my personality without anger...sort of like the doughnut without the hole. it's not a doughnut anymore. i'm not a doughnut anymore. but. what am i?

2005-01-24T14:33:00.000-05:00

things i'm sick of

1. fear
2. anxiety
3. being poor, and i say that with a full knowing that i am rich in so many ways, and even materially i am far wealthier than many in this country and others, but this is my list and my life and i am telling you that as compared to others in my various peer groups, i am POOR and i am SICK OF IT.
4. hating everybody
5. not knowing how to set up my CD collection
6. not having a CD player to set up on which said CDs would be played
7. being unmotivated in connection with physical exercise

2005-01-24T14:22:00.000-05:00

i am cultivating the following new habits

1. using teabag more than once
2. going "for a walk"
3. appreciating nature for itself, its intrinsic beauty or whatever, having that experience and savoring it
4. kindness in my responses to others, situations, my own private thoughts
5. focusing on what's good in others
6. making difficult phone calls sooner rather than later

2005-01-09T19:54:00.000-05:00

this week

1. go to tiffany already. it's been like over two months.
2. call stearns & foerster to complain about sagging dent in uber-expensive mattress but do not presume that they are out to screw even thought their warranty is inherently screwful.
3. buy box of clever and/or supremely elegant "thank you" cards.
4. place telephone call to reverend joan block to arrange supervisory meal.
5. read torah portion.
6. eat lots of green vegetables.
7. buy dr. h moisturizer at either whole foods or westerley
8. go to bed early.
9. go to fairway and buy salmon. a bunch of it.
10. call the lady whose car got towed.

2005-01-09T19:48:00.000-05:00

what i really want to eat tonight but won't because we are making a BIG SALAD

1. steak from al di la
2. french fries accompanying said steak from al di la
3. steak burrito from la tacqueria
4. chips that accompany said steak burrito from la tacqueria

commentary:

i will admit i feel conflicted. i do want a big salad, but i really want a big steak. i could eat both. do you understand? i have the urge to fill my entire mouth with food, as much as i can humanly fit in there, just because it feels good. it's a bad habit, but i have that urge.

2005-01-09T19:40:00.000-05:00

a post mistakenly made to the "coffee" blog related to this site from 12.1.04:

focus on vegetables

1. brussel sprouts
2. kale

2004-12-28T16:21:00.000-05:00

animals people have mentioned, and that i have thought of, today

1. dog
2. monkey
3. goat
4. dolphin
5. cat
6. donkey

2004-12-28T15:57:00.000-05:00

what i've eaten today plus commentary, below, by a guest commentator

1. coffee
2. banana
3. two ("2") boiled eggs
4. roasted veg soup
5. granola
6. seven hundred ("700") pounds of peanuts and raisins
7. water

commentary by the guest commentator

I love your list here, though. The seven hundred pounds of peanuts and raisins dropped in at position #6 is what really makes it excellent. Raisins and peanuts are healthy, though. Your list of foods is not bad at all. You could have done much much worse, I'm sure.

note

that there is suddenly commentary does not have any secret meaning, nor should it indicate that i have become less interested in consistency and form. rather, dear reader, from the beautiful and holy example set by my daily torah study, i feel that running commentary adds so many layers to the experience of the list. it is a living list, therefore, one that invites your commentary and the commentary of future generations. and so it is.

2004-12-28T15:26:00.000-05:00

a list submitted by my friend:

I've been eating very healthful foods today

1. four ("4") pieces of See's candy
2. three ("3") chocolate-covered graham crackers
3. one ("1") leftover chocolate Santa

And of course,

4. one ("1") grande skim latte

2004-12-21T15:55:00.000-05:00

movies i've seen and enjoyed lately
1. kinsey
2. bad education
3. ray
4. i heart huckabees
5. the incredibles
6. garden state

2004-12-21T15:37:00.000-05:00

things i've remembered liking from another segment of my ever-evolving life journey but which i forgot or lost track of during recent years
1. esquivel, i.e., lounge music in general
2. mcsweeney's
3. salinger
4. short stories in general
5. turtle necks
6. going to movies a lot
7. telephone calls
8. making actual plans to meet friends to do things instead of endlessly volleying electronic messages ("email").
9. sleeping
10.fun

2004-12-01T16:08:00.000-05:00

to do

1. call beth israel medical center to follow up on the many confusing tangles they have created on my behalf which require intervention from patient advocates and other high level administrators
2. pick up special item at tiffany.
3. write extremely low-etiquette ("low et") thank-you note to hostess of new hampshire.
4. buy queen size sheets already.
5. get divorced.
6. get a lamp for living room that throws lovely light to replace the one the cats destroyed. hurry.
7. find a new therapist. maybe.
8. email san francisco-based college pal who helped me to pass logic with an impressive c+.
9. send prescription to prescription arm of health insurance company who will (i) send me my script via postal mail, and (ii) by its existence, likely put small, mom-and-pop drug stores out of business, yet (iii) their prices are competitive, however (iv) current law favors this practice in such a way as to hamper truly fair competition, so it is (v) wrong, very (vi) wrong, but it is (vii) so bloody convenient that i can't help myself.
10. think about buying tickets to see alvin ailey by myself since i seem to be the only one who enjoys beautiful, lush, musical, deep movement-based dance instead of "dance" that is so conceptual that there is hardly any movement going on with the exception of large puppets or other ghastly, life-sized figures.
11. obtain raw, organic cashews.
12. hydrate.
13. discern the source of my current body rash.
14. feel angry that there is no trader joe store in the travel range of my monthly metro card.

2004-09-29T16:08:00.000-04:00

**new feature**
---->snapshot!
1. the comforting sounds of the magnetic fields
2. unsalted peanuts
3. longing for a good cup of coffee
4. contemplating making jasmine tea
5. poor hydration
6. erev sukkot: soon

2004-09-09T22:43:00.000-04:00

what i might do tomorrow if i don't have to go to work

1. clean
2. laundry
3. study torah portion
4. go running
5. organize papers
6. praise the lord
7. drop off dry cleaning
8. get suit repaired

what i will do tomorrow if i have to go to work

1. go for a run
2. buy two ("2") baby size challahs
3. take dry cleaning in
4. lite cleaning
5. boil two ("2") eggs

2004-09-09T22:42:00.000-04:00

music that i have to start remembering

1. beck
2. liz phair
3. pearl jam
4. talking heads
5. grateful dead

2004-08-27T11:08:00.000-04:00

yesterday

1. raw cashews
2. coffee
3. water
4. trail mix provided by ny blood center representative
5. chicken pepper mozzarella "wrap" from westerly
6. wheatgrass shot
7. healthy food bar made of organic and real food substances and which is not a deceptive format for cake, cookies or other crap in the form of a "nutrition" "bar" which unsuspecting consumers seem to buy and which, i am guessing, produces a market segment of great and possibly spiraling value.
8. beef pad see yeuw
9. european style cookies with dark chocolate on top, several

2004-08-27T10:57:00.000-04:00

current musical rotation

1. los super seven
2. prema deval
3. travis
4. sigur ros

2004-08-26T14:35:00.000-04:00

i am so healthy

1. it's amazing, but i seem to be doing more healthful activities. this coincides with the introduction of a new personal force in my life which is not causal, but which is most surely related.
2. acupuncture twice a week for the past two weeks or so.
3. yoga class on tuesday has given me hope that i, too, can perform and share yoga.
4. look forward to the challenge of walking up excessive riverdale steps.

2004-08-26T14:30:00.000-04:00

proactive nutrition!
1. after being denied the honor of donating blood due to low iron levels in blood, realized immediate vitamin overhaul was needed.
2. realized this yesterday, but not in relation to blood-giving attempt and as such called holistic/spiritual chiropractic guru for advice.
3. receptionist of h/s/c/g returned call with positive information regarding multivitamin formula that does not include iron.
4. did not think to discuss iron issue.
5. went to westerly and procured metagenics multivitamins which are green and large.
6. also obtained excellent iron supplements taken from an actual slice of a healthy animal's liver.
7. felt kind of weird about that, but went ahead with purchase.
8. to ritualize my new attitude towards vitamins and health, enjoyed a wheatgrass shot.
9. in connection with number eight ("8") above, remembered scene from the book "postcards from the edge" that had to do with wheatgrass and recalled, also, how hilariously funny it was.

2004-08-20T12:05:00.000-04:00

spanish is fun

1. los super 7 "canto"
2. comida de ayer
3. dame chicle
4. dame chicle, por favor
5. lunes, martes, miercoles, jueves, viernes, sabado, domingo
6. hoy es el veinte de augosto
7. ayer fue jueves
8. manana sera sabado
9. el senor

2004-08-19T16:50:00.000-04:00

fun things i want to do soon

1. miniature golf
2. bowling
3. find my tether and never let go
4. if i should let go, that i would find it again quickly and
5. forgive self at once

2004-08-17T10:06:00.000-04:00

good news
1. acupuncture
2. new glasses
3. brain gym
4. spinal discovery
5. biblical hebrew
6. shaping heart with torah 8/18, 8/25, 9/1, 9/8
7. dry cleaning delivery
8. rockaway 8/20
9. walk, run, walk, run, walk 8/15

2004-08-02T13:33:00.000-04:00

today started out badly
1. sandalwood incense, lifted from younger sister's belongings as mother compulsively sought to reduce clutter in room that is marked for transformation into nursery, smells bad and is trashed.
2. during morning torah study, elder cat vomits morning meal in numerous locations, forcing unwanted cleaning and attendant feelings of revulsion, anger and annoyance.
3. towards end of vomit-interrupted torah study, an incoming telephone call provided another unwelcome interruption which caused an unfortunate block in my chi.
4. had to relocate twice during the same downtown train ride to work because people who smelled very, very badly chose to enter my space.
5. further to number three ("3") above, i do not enjoy or appreciate the smell of decaying flesh, filthy clothes and general body rot, especially in the morning. when i am trying to enjoy my coffee and morning reading.
6. work began at an intense, dizzying pace.

2004-07-31T23:37:00.000-04:00

a reasonable saturday in july
1. enjoyed sumatra bean in gray russel wright cup and saucer.
2. had feelings - some new, some old.
3. composed email to mufasa and aurora borealis, father thomas, mother.
4. packed umbrella, raw cashews, notebook, wallet, mobile phone and custom made cranberry-echinacea beverage in small manhattan portage bag that i really need to throw out already.
5. helped father thomas unsuccessfully locate his book by spong entitled something like our hebrew lord.
6. rode #1 train to upper west side meeting location.
7. enjoyed theme of meeting, applied to multiple areas of life, psyche and heart; connected with fellow meeting-goers and ended with a hearty "omein".
8. returned to little jerusalem.
9. after trial and mostly error, affixed lovely brackets to wall and suspended new drapes.
10. mopped floor.
11. realized that i will have to make more money soon so i can hire someone to mop my floors.
12. mentally made tentative outfit choices.
13. put away air mattress.
14. enjoyed quick, lukewarm shower.
15. received lovely floral gift.
16. ordered chirashi deluxe.
17. noted deeply relaxed state.
18. shared former obsession with food porn.
19. visited with father tom and nice architecture friend.
20. realized this, too, is an area i know nothing about: architecture.
21. received drive-by delivery of wet cat food supplies.
22. donned favorite brooks brothers pajama top and green and white striped boxer shorts.

2004-07-23T10:19:00.000-04:00

today
1. i wish i could have the day off each friday for elaborate shabbos preparations. how do people manage?
2. i have an appointment this afternoon to view a web camera and see two dear vacationing friends waving.
3. i would like a cup of coffee.
4. after executing a work task, i may procure aforementioned cup of coffee.
5. re: above, i am thinking: size "tall".
6. eating grains in the morning is pleasing.
7. my new bed from macy's is scheduled to be delivered and assembled tomorrow.
8. i should really call my chiropractor.
9. where should i find yoga?

2004-07-21T11:35:00.000-04:00

good news

1. father is assigning my turtle to one of his graduate students.
2. father is assigning my pleco to one of his graduate students.
3. i will be returning unopened turtle-related supplies to pet store.
4. my latest g-d tantrum is coming to a close, and it was a productive tantrum.
5. i have become aware of a huge and gaping character defect which may, after all, be one that responds well to certain types of care.
6. i feel ready to go to bed, bath & beyond to procure necessary home supplies the details of which will appear in another list.
7. i have a free session with a personal feng shui/energy/nutrition type person today who has a foreign accent but whose personality is pleasing.

2004-07-16T19:51:00.000-04:00

hate

1. humidity
2. cleaning
3. sleepy's, inc., the "mattress professionals"

2004-07-01T20:57:00.000-04:00

my nut collection

these are nuts i enjoy:
1. raw, whole cashew
2. toasted walnut half, unsalted
3. roasted walnut, unsalted
4. dry, roasted, unsalted peanut

2004-05-26T10:04:00.000-04:00

beautiful things

1. parsley soap
2. ceiling fans
3. window screens

2004-05-24T13:51:00.000-04:00

what i've eaten so far today
1. coffee
2. walnuts
3. pear
4. smoked turkey "sandwich" minus the bread
5. iced doppio with milk

2004-05-23T00:45:00.000-04:00

what i bought today

1. ceiling fan
2. goo gone, spray version
3. multi-colored fasteners for wire organization
4. the services of four men who re assembled my leather couch
5. the new york times

2004-05-06T18:15:00.000-04:00

today

1. walnuts
2. half (".5") pear
3. peanuts
4. salami sandwich
5. salt & vinegar potato chips
6. coffee
7. water

2004-05-05T22:03:00.000-04:00

new age words and phrases i abhor
a collaborative list between me and t.

1. vision, visions
2. intention, intentions
3. stepping up
4. connecting
5. getting my needs met
6. focus
7. clarity
8. grace

2004-05-03T17:50:00.000-04:00

so much to do

1. acquire packing supplies
2. pack
3. finish drafting and editing elements of ministers manual
4. finish creating, and rehearse, worship service with dear friend who, when was refused an opportunity to share her work of fiction with our class, went out for chinese food and some drinks and then left pointed, fierce message on director's answering machine on a saturday evening.
5. move
6. write and rehearse commencement mini-speech
7. oversee completion of commencement gown
8. conceive of shoes and rest of outfit for aforesaid commencement
9. plan and finalize celebration
10. procure wedding gift for father
11. learn which prayers i am to offer at father nuptuals
12. prepare such prayers

2004-05-03T17:16:00.000-04:00

things eaten this day

1. banana
2. pear
3. approximately fifteen ("15") walnut halves
4. two ("2") boiled eggs
5. half (".5") a sweet potato
6. coffee
7. tonic of lemon juice, fresh ginger, cayenne pepper

2004-04-07T15:22:00.000-04:00

matzoh hangover, or what i've eaten today, this second day of pesach
1. banana
2. coffee
3. leftover brisket
4. shmuroh matzah
5. gefilte fish
6. horse radish

2004-03-13T21:32:00.000-05:00

it's a new day
1. participate in day-long learning opportunity on the topic of forgiveness, the central tenet of a course in miracles, taught by the brilliant and kind rev. diane berke
2. brought mediocre ball point pen which did not provide enjoyment during the course of writing notes
3. snacked on toasted walnuts and cran-water
4. received impromptu gift of wrigley's extra lasts longer sugerfree peppermint gum from classmate
5. felt feelings
6. cried tears
7. had gruyere-herb-mushroom omelette for lunch at large table of former and present seminary students
8. offered self as volunteer for exercise that illustrated how anger makes me anything but powerful, and how love makes me incredibly strong
9. composed and submitted several relentless emails regarding the evils of prosletyzing and the various offshoots of warner erhard's est, specifically landmark
10. ate sinful dinner meal at park slope chip shop
11. chose to skip fried twinkie dessert
12. enjoyed a doppio macchiato with one shot free
13. procured sunday new york times

2004-03-08T17:12:00.000-05:00

where is g-d?
1. in sacred texts?
2. in other people?
3. in prayer?
4. in other people who are ugly, fat or boring?
5. in other people who do hideosly evil things?
6. in houses of worship?
7. in nature?

2004-02-26T17:17:00.000-05:00

things that have made today a high quality day
1. i've rekindled my connection with tomatoes. over the winter months, i have not been attracted to tomatoes with the exception of tomato products which appear and are featured in hearty sauces.
2. my coffee was very, very good this morning.
3. work was productive and energetically positive today.
4. i am able to communicate through one of my webmail accounts, making me think that the authorities have only blocked the usual suspects, being aol, microsoft, hotmail, yahoo.

2004-02-23T22:22:00.000-05:00

things that were not good about my day
1. forgot olive oil for lunchtime baby greens salad. realized same after salting and incorporating the juice of one ("1") slice of an organic lemon which means it was too late to go out and buy some olive oil at some skanky, expensive "gourmet" deli where the bottles of olive oil are dusty and bear strange brand names that are typically sold at auction with no expiration date
2. web blocking software was repaired at my place of employment making access to web mail impossible. rumour has it one has to only backspace after seeing the "too bad suckah" page. i googled "circumventing web blocking software" and found an interesting solution that was not beyond my technical abilities, but my better judgment informed both my higher and lower selves that abiding by the law at a law firm was in my highest good.
3. left menstrual supplies at home, necessitating the purchase of additional, when the whole point of buying super mega size o.b. menstruals was to not have to buy them on the fly.
4. my big fat obnoxious fiancee has concluded. i will miss "steve".

2004-01-10T21:07:00.000-05:00

what i'm going to be focusing on in my new life
1. total grooming
2. getting everywhere on time
3. not overbooking
4. getting more than enough sleep
5. really, really thinking before opening mouth, in order to identify times when i should not be speaking but instead breathing and calming self
6. attending musical events
7. observing art forms such as photography
8. going to and renting more movies
9. watering plants on a regular schedule
10. grooming cats on a regular schedule

2003-12-22T16:33:00.000-05:00

environmental cruelty
1. i use way too many plastic ziplock bags.
2. it's hard because of how much i enjoy them.
3. specifically, i enjoy pulling them out of their dispenser and
4. marveling at them.
5. i enjoy their convenience.
6. i enjoy the snack size
7. i enjoy the quart size
8. the snack size back often carries a lemon wedge,
9. toasted walnuts,
10. sea salt,
11. protein powder.
12. the quart size often carries baby greens or
13. spinach
14. i realize this constitutes environmental cruelty and i should amend my ways.

2003-12-15T11:34:00.000-05:00

holiday offenses
1. enforced, cloying "cheer", "joy"
2. horrible xmas music, sometimes known as "carols"
3. pressure on hanukkah to be something spectacular, practically on ice, when it's a minor, 40-watt holiday
4. feelings of guilt for not buying any presents
5. obligatory party appearances
6. obligatory moments of seeking out meaning in ordinary things
7. terrible color combining, i.e., green and red
8. poinsettas
9. uncontrollable urge to reflect on life, seeing everything that's missing in technicolor
10. stores too crowded to attempt regular shopping for one's needs due to crazed gift buyers who are attempting to summarize their feelings for loved ones by purchasing turtle necks, ties, mittens and cute, horrid ornaments
11. tree cruelty

2003-12-15T11:12:00.000-05:00

work offenses
1. call "tech support" to determine what kind of paper goes in which trays of printer only to be told, "it should be labeled."
2. insidious, negative female perfume that causes feelings of headache, nausea, agitation.
3. lack of a proper style manual to be used in support of important document production decisions such as whether to write out a numeral or use the numeral itself when presented as a page number less than the number ten ("10").

2003-11-19T16:41:00.000-05:00

a guest list from a friend in another zip code:

1. checkbook
2. wallet
3. tarot card deck
4. an olive green shirt
5. a blue paper parasol, unused, from a Chinese restaurant
6. two squares of nicorette gum from when I used to chew the nasty stuff
7. assorted reciepts bunched up
8. a necklace that flashes if you press a button and it has statue of liberty beads
9. Robert Palmer's "Drive" CD
10. UB40 and the fathers of reggae CD
11. pens
12. cell phone
13. a tube of stuff you use to make miniature balloons, if you blob it on the end of a miniature red straw, which I lost.
14. spare change
15. a small note pad with Holiday Inn insignia
16. a couple of towlettes, from Cumberland Farms
17. a purple plastic comb with a few teeth missing

2003-11-18T23:16:00.000-05:00

foods i keep running out of no matter how much i buy of them, or how often:
1. spinach
2. pears

2003-11-18T23:09:00.000-05:00

what's in my cocktail:
1. flaxseed meal
2. magnesium
3. cranberry concentrate
4. lemon juice
5. hot water
6. apple cider vinegar

2003-11-05T17:22:00.000-05:00

vegetables and fruits i must procure at my earliest convenience
1. pears
2. lemons
3. apples
4. baby spinach
5. kirby cucumbers
6. garlic
7. broccoli
8. cauliflower

condiments " "
1. tahina
2. extra virgin olive oil
3. chicken broth

2003-10-11T13:27:00.000-04:00

wisdom: things i've come to know in this, my thirty-seventh year
1. i can clip my own nails rather nicely, making ordinary nail growth possible, whereas before i always thought a professional manicure was required. while such manicures are glorious when attended with proper products and professionalism, i can now confidently attend to my nails and cuticles.
2. baking soda has amazing and diverse cleaning strength and reach.
3. it's important to adopt a healthy attitude towards one's parents, as sometimes they can behave in ways that make one question the existence of evil, and whether what appears as "evil" is still part of g-d proper.

2003-10-08T12:31:00.000-04:00

what's in the tea i'm drinking now
1. hot water.
2. juice of an organic lemon.
3. fresh ginger.
4. cayenne pepper.

2003-10-07T23:34:00.000-04:00

what i will do tomorrow to promote centeredness, focus and job-finding energy
1. upon waking, thank g-d for being returned to planet earth for another excellent day.
2. recite heartfelt coffee blessing, making sure to include those who would gather the beans of the vine in the shade wearing hats woven of straw worked by various indiginous people enjoying their own native culture that would include, but not be limited to, their language, sports, cuisine, fashion, gestures, beliefs, dances, arts and sacred technologies.
3. write letter to g-d focusing on his magnificence, lovingkindness, strength and sense of style and fairness in all matters, avoiding an outright plea for solutions to my trivial problems.
4. meditate for no less than fifteen ("15") minutes to work towards finding the point on the spinning wheel that is in complete stillness.
5. eat (a) ten ("10") pan toasted walnut halves, (b) a banana, (c) eight ("8") onces of cranberry juice with (d) crushed, toasted flax seeds, (e) various vitamins.

2003-10-07T23:29:00.000-04:00

vegetables i've been really enjoying lately
1. zucchini, green and yellow.
2. bok choy, often written as "ba choy" in several chinese restaurants i've visited.
3. asaparagus.
4. broccoli.

2003-10-07T00:12:00.000-04:00

things i've learned recently
1. walking to the train beats waiting for the bus at the bus stop where there is often second-hand smoke and the unwanted ambient noise of strange dirtbag types recounting fights and drinking incidents.
2. plain soy milk, heated, is excellent in my coffee.
3."energy healing" is stupid. it's tv evangelism repackaged by pseudospiritual urban types who leave well-paying and respectable careers in order to "heal" people by closing their eyes and picturing their patient "healed" -- as if they know what that should be.
4. egg white omelettes suck.
5. now that spirituality is mainstream, many wear it like an accessory.
6. it's amazing how much hate i can feel at times.
7. it's amazing how much love i can feel at times.
8. it's important for one's self-esteem to have a vcr that is in working order.

2003-09-11T11:16:00.000-04:00

what would go in the emergency knapsack, or "e-knapsack," or possibly "e-sack" that should be prepared at my earliest convenience
1. water
2. candles
3. protein bars
4. transistor radio
5. extra batteries
6. money
7. first aid kit (to be discussed in upcoming lists)
8. notebook
9. pen
10. sweatshirt
11. underwear
12. some kind of spiritual meditation book
13. bus maps
14. complete person contact sheet
15. bug spray (nontoxic)

2003-09-08T11:58:00.000-04:00

what i ate so far today
1. two ("2") hard boiled eggs
2. coffee
3. one ("1") plastic container of odwalla brand super protein 2003 18g of protein per bottle vitamin fruit juice drink 450 ml (15.2 fl oz)

2003-09-08T11:42:00.000-04:00

facts
1. it's not fair.
2. i rock.
3. i want a vespa.
4. harlem is a new housing possibility.
5. i might be over brooklyn.
6. i might be over new york altogether.
7. i'm ready for my new life to begin.
8. i need to prepare an emergency knapsack.
9. it might be time for a hair cut.
10. i know god has my back.
11. i purchased lunch and breakfast from a deli today for a grand total of $7.50.
12. i deserve to go to the movies.
13. another way to look at fear is excitement.

2003-09-02T11:00:00.000-04:00

my weekend
1. eagle.
2. heron.
3. ducks, school of.
4. salmon.
5. wal-mart.
6. "panda paw" ice cream.
7. delaware river.
8. rain.
9. wnba playoffs.
10. two ("2") kitties.
11. coffee debacle.
12. communities of hasidim.
13. sauce of greek yogurt, cumin, garlic, fresh dill, kirby cucumbers.
14. roasted whole carrots.
15. banana cream pie provided by person with many parallel life stories and facts functioning at once, with obvious conflicts, in a lovely glass pie dish probably from the 1940s with a matching glass lid.

2003-08-15T22:00:00.000-04:00

some things
1. i dreamt i left my guitar in the classroom. it (the guitar) was brown.
2. infatuation doesn't have much depth.
3. my teeth are precious.
4. some smiles are scary.

post-blackout menu of the day
1. organic hot red pepper chicken sausages, two ("2").
2. organic hot red pepper chicken sausages, two ("2").
3. can of chick peas with fresh pepper.
4. coffee.
5. water.
6. caesar salad.
7. diet coke with lemon.
8. nasty, orgiastic slices, three ("3") of pizza with sausage, mushroom and fresh garlic.

2003-08-12T22:47:00.000-04:00

things that are important to me, a reminder
1. oxygen, i.e., breathing.
2. dining out in expensive and excellent restaurants.
3. love expressed verbally and in writing.
4. frequent showers.
5. intelligent conversation.
6. sweetness.
7. reading the new york times on saturday night. and sunday.
8. weekly therapy with someone skilled, hip to the heavy-large things and also deeply spiritual.
9. many shades of green.
10. good design.
11. sincere, relaxed hugs.
12. movies.
13. organic grapefruits.

2003-08-10T20:10:00.000-04:00

things i've known in a sense, but which are becoming much clearer and as such present as new knowledge, but whatever

1. insanity is not necessarily foaming and dangerous.
2. i can choose my own reality, but this does not mean i do not abide by the laws of my city, state, country or faith tradition.
3. evangelism is a sure sign of an unbalanced person who walks a path that is not suited to him and which is not blessing the world.
4. one tiny, simple action kicks the ass of the most grandiose intention.
5. i must be the changes i wish to see in others, and in the world.
6. if i must keep selling a point of view, then i am the one who needs to hear it.
7. ft. tryon park is really quite lovely.
8. washington heights and inwood are viable living options.
9. brooklyn is fast becoming a hipster haven, but i do not have to let them steal my joy.
10. nobody can steal my joy unless i let them.
11. peanut butter is good.
12. garlic is life. a person who does not appreciate garlic does not appreciate love, sex and likely other essential life components.
13. grudges are exhausting.
14. talk about diets is stupid, unless nutrition and wellness is intended. idle weight chatter is about as interesting as, well, just about anything is more interesting.
15. organic is better, but it's changing.
16. fairway is not to be trusted.
17. people who are hostile to the idea of god are crying out for love. these are not good playmates. this energy is at the same vibrational level as a thirteen year old who doesn't want to clean his room.

2003-08-06T10:48:00.000-04:00

breakfast
1. two ("2") poached eggs.
2. irish oats.
3. flaxseed oil.
4. coffee.

2003-08-05T12:40:00.000-04:00

what i have learned
1. lemon luna bars taste bad and make me sad.
2. my relationships are truly a reflection of the kind of god i have.
3. i really, really love the catskills.
4. love brings up everything unlike itself.
5. water is the ultimate beverage.
6. it's not about me.
7. everything is sacred.
8. fairway's $2.99 canned coffee is good.

2003-06-15T14:17:00.000-04:00

my excellent day yesterday
1. coffee.
2. leftover sashimi.
3. lip wax.
4. run into nice neighborhood friends from shul.
5. steak and guacamole burrito.
6. ny liberty versus los angeles sparks: we lost 67-60.
7. naughty italian dinner in shlocky suburban pasta hole called "pizza n brew" of eggplant parmigiana and spaghetti with meat sauce.
8. obtain white pants and panties to be worn during so-called "purification" ceremony to be held during interfaith intensive.
9. obtain medium-sized carvel ice cream: vanilla fudge and mint chip with m&ms.
10. feel giddy sugar buzz.
11. enjoy company of girlfriend.
12. pass out.

2003-06-15T13:46:00.000-04:00

facts and impressions surrounding my new age afternoon: 22 may 03
note: such facts and impressions occurred in the waiting room of a new age healing space, or "nahs" pronounced "NAHSSS", while waiting for girlfriend to obtain "healing" from vibratory vegetarian.

1. irritation upon entry.
2. woman playing cell phone game with game noise: on.
3. whole wheat sandwich and baby carrots in snacksized ziplock bag, red haired, studying something new-age healing, corduroy-wearing lesbian.
4. obese man in ill-fitting coat.
5. oil can "art" (still)
6. lame clove tea.
7. bad waiting room music.
8. *so* much bad storage.
9. "baby i'm amazed" by paul mccartney & wings, lesbian singing along earnestly.
10. russian woman drinking repeat cups of free water.
11. why don't i feel more loving?
12. there's the cute sign language chick!
13. what kind of damage can i do with the sun-shaped oil drum "art"?
14. good, healing things can't possibly be going on here.
15. pile of sad, old fone books make me want to cry.
16. there isn't one thing in here i would steal if given the opportunity.
17. "room six (6) is ready" reminds me of the guy at whole foods who tells you what checkout line you are to approach, e.g., "eighteen is yours."
18. everyone who walks in is fat, badly dressed, ugly and not smiling. all have knapsacks.
19. in fact, i feel sick.
20. medical complaints being issued and appreciated.
21. i feel the urge to be mean to the fat, cross-eyed girl.
22. guy won't stop describing his fucked-up eardrum.
23. tall, glide-walking man with large sweat stain under his arms.
24. eardrum story has developed into a recounting of seizures.
25. the word "nebulous" was said.
26. sweat man reveals native american necklace.
27. seizure sotyr turns into an extra sixty (60) pounds he can't take off.
28. "aren't those amazing?" -- sweat man reveals the oil drum art with a sweeping, vanna white gesture. "have you seen the oil drums?"
29. natural snacks being eaten.
30. journey being played.
31. seizure man detailing his unsatisfying undergraduate education.