what i hate
1. everyone
2. everything
3. that windbreaker-wearing sissy-man who will not move in on his seat on the rail link, but instead rises so he can retain the outside seat. this is selfish and ridiculous on the 7:33am rail link since there is only one stop and everybody has to get off so there is no distinct strategic advantage to having the outside seat. this is, most likely, the only way he can have power in his life. i hate him.
4. new age anything
5. "visioning"
6. "spirituality"
7. gender identity politics
8. "peace" protestors who rage, pound and insult the police WHO ARE DOING THEIR JOB AND PROTECTING US AND KEEPING EVERYTHING MOVING ALONG PEACEFULLY IN THE BUSY CITY OF MANHATTAN
9. unwanted facial hair
10. relationships of any kind
11. new york
12. san francisco

what i am eating now
1. roasted chicken breast. sage, fresh pepper, oregano. sea salt, olive oil.
2. gruyere.
3. radishes - have i mentioned how i adore radishes? they must be organic though.
4. baby carrots.

things that thrilled the living fuck out of me today
1. how good my coffee was this morning.
2. that a certain difficult political/spiritual conversation i'm having in the context of an online discussion group is developing nicely into a meeting of the minds instead of out-and-out war.
3. that aubrey, maker of a moisturizing product i use and adore, is revisiting their packaging.
4. that i received a detailed email from my friend who is busy enjoying a fulfilling love affair. i am very glad and happy for her and look forward to meeting her man.
5. that i found a copy of thomas moore's "care of the soul" for a dollah in a church basement and there weren't too many moronic underlinings in it, and the few i found were easily erased, with the exception of some really moronic pen underlinings.
6. that there is still money left on my starbucks card, a gift from my girlfriend for my birthday.

things that made me crazy mad today
1. that the starbucks i chose to study in smelled like a fucking public toilet.
2. that the fucking public toilet at the starbucks i chose to study in had a broken door lock, and as such, i was prevented from enacting my usual (public) bathroom rituals which include, but are not limited to, (a) cleaning the seat thoroughly with purell and (b) applying three (3) or four (4) protective seat covers.
3. that unruly, invasive children were admitted to this starbucks, on the upper west side of manhattan, and said children created noise pollution while i was trying to learn about the structure of the federal, and other, court systems in our amazing, puzzling country.
4. that two very dirty, probably retarded young boys were admitted to my public transport mode ("ptm") and began making humming, clicking and other highly distracting noises that made reading my newly-purchased copy of thomas moore's "care of the soul" next to impossible.
5. a person i dislike and practically forgot existed re appeared today in one of my life's aspects. said person, a ratlike biped with issues, issued one of the most offending, whining run-on sentences in the history of the modern recovery movement ("mrm"). during and after this "share" i swore to myself i would not, under any circumstances, give her my telephone number and if she asked why? i would simply reiterate the word "no" over and over. this person must be the exception to the rule that states, god is in everyone.

little known things about me
1. sometimes, i drink instant coffee.
2. my favorite television show is on sundays at eight ("8") pm and is called "american dreams." i love this show and think about it all week long. i was very upset when the militants overturned helen's voter registration table and think nathan should have been fired long ago. jj's injury will open psychic doors for him, making dad pay more attention to meg's blossoming career as aspiring producer on bandstand.
3. i sometimes like american cheese omelettes.
4. vanilla is my favorite ice cream flavor.
5. i am shy.
6. when people around me "vision" and want to perform before an audience of millions, travel the world, do all kinds of colorful things, my single thought is i just want to be happy.
7. although i devote more time to spiritual pursuits than many, i can't find god no matter what i do or how hard i try.
8. i was complicit in the theft of a bottle of company gin by a subordinate, for whom i mixed gin and tonics at her place of residence, even though i am many years sober and have no business doing such things - but it was riotously funny. honest - i won't do that again.

two events
1. i was prevented from eating my dinner of baby greens, olive oil, lemon, sea salt and sliced, herb roasted chicken breast by accidentally witnessing a young, handsome man eat a cow's eye on "fear factor" and saw, specifically, liquids squirt out of his mouth after the initial crunch. i nearly heaved and struggled for almost two hours to bypass my nauseous feelings.
2. while cleaning out my turtle's tank, i placed him in a small saucer-like dish beneath the sun-equivalent lamp so i could remove the rocks and things and rinse. when i returned, the turtle had vanished. this was scary because of the cats. he was found beneath the cabinet in which my china lives. he seems ok.

today's highlights
1. inserted half of an extremely large organic chicken breast in a ziplock bag and brought it to school.
2. became irate when carping, unattractive, zero-iq woman reiterated the same unimportant administrative complaint over four times and said in my outside voice, "enough already. let it go. let's learn about the law."
3. received snotty, mean remark from her low-iq friend.
4. simmered quietly, plotting revenge.
5. explored cafeteria with two normal-iq adults and procured $1.43 worth of mixed baby green salad with three ("3") tomatoes and mediocre but acceptable ranch dressing.
6. walked to grand central station to resolve metro-north/metro card issue.
7. resolved said issue, learned about potential benefits of mail 'n ride program.
8. purchased 1-liter bottle of dasani brand "purified" water, enhanced with minerals for a pure, fresh taste for .69.
9. utilized free online time at a certain politically correct community center on west thirteenth ("13") street that requires certain data in exchange for computer usage including name, email address, age, color, gender.
10. pondered the legality of requiring such data.
11. felt annoyed at loud, multi-ethnic/multi-gender chatter in cyber room of aforementioned pc community center.
12. viewed frightening cyber-worker out of corner of left eye, reviewing with horror her claw-arm
13. sanitized hands with travel-size bottle of purell antibacterial product.